BEEP

You might just laugh and say my name

And I’ll pretend you feel the same

I call you up, and five quick seconds start to bend

A hundred thoughts flood my chest and fill my mind

What if you smiled and softly said, “come here again”?

You’ll never know the storm I hide behind this — beep

I freeze again — beep

No breath is left — beep

My knees just shake — beep

I don’t know if you feel too

But I keep losing focus

Like I’m the only one who cares

beep

I see your face in all these quiet little things

Like in a laugh or when my phone begins to ring

I build a life with you inside my crooked head

You’ll never know the storm I hide behind this — beep

I freeze again — beep

No breath is left — beep

My knees just shake — beep

I know these thoughts don’t mean a thing

But still, they pull me every time

I tell myself to stop, but I keep dreaming over you

The more I try to shake it off, the more I see it true

I play out conversations that we never really do

You live your life in peace, while I keep falling through — beep

I freeze again — beep

No breath is left — beep

My knees just shake — beep

I freeze again — beep

No breath is left — beep

My knees just shake — beep

I tell myself to stop, but I keep dreaming over you

The more I try to shake it off, the more I see it true

I play out conversations that we never really do

You live your life in peace, while I keep falling through